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Stay or Go
Jan. 15th, 2003 10:23 amHere I am, listening to His Dark Materials, making myself some tea, washing clothes and tidying up my apartment. The radio play is based on a fabulous trilogy that I've unfortunately only read two of the three books. Within it, they talk of the north, snow and aurora borealis.
Ah, where am I going with this... The decision to renew my contract is coming up in February. I've been wrestling with the decision for a while now. Hearing about the aurora reminds me of one of the things I miss most in this place; we have all the snow, cold and short days here, but we don't have the glorious dancing lights in the sky to search for at night. The northern lights won't be the main reason for me not to renew, but it is a symptom of my discontent.
Before Christmas, a large part of me was considering renewing - good, reliable job where I am making a difference, tax-free, steady income, good places to travel in downtime.
Right now, a large part of me is considering not renewing - I'm going to be in my late 20's leaving Japan, there are other places I want to experience, I want to get some hours in working as a teacher in my own field of specialization, I want to leave Japan still loving the place, I want to spend time with my parents as they grow older.
I don't know - I wish someone could tell me what the path was like down the road of "Not Renewing your Contract."
Ah, where am I going with this... The decision to renew my contract is coming up in February. I've been wrestling with the decision for a while now. Hearing about the aurora reminds me of one of the things I miss most in this place; we have all the snow, cold and short days here, but we don't have the glorious dancing lights in the sky to search for at night. The northern lights won't be the main reason for me not to renew, but it is a symptom of my discontent.
Before Christmas, a large part of me was considering renewing - good, reliable job where I am making a difference, tax-free, steady income, good places to travel in downtime.
Right now, a large part of me is considering not renewing - I'm going to be in my late 20's leaving Japan, there are other places I want to experience, I want to get some hours in working as a teacher in my own field of specialization, I want to leave Japan still loving the place, I want to spend time with my parents as they grow older.
I don't know - I wish someone could tell me what the path was like down the road of "Not Renewing your Contract."